At wit’s end
August 20, 2008
Wtf.
Primary health care is *deep breath*an essential part of health care based on practical, scientifically sound, socially accepted methods &technology made universally accessible to individuals and families in the community through their full participation
there’s more.
..and at a cost that the community can afford to maintain at every stage of their development..
Belom lagi, dok
..in the spirit of self-determination.
Wtf.
Mother of all long winded definition.
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Must kick last paper’s ass. Can kick last paper’s ass. So what if I had slept from 12noon to 6pm after today’s paper, instead of mugging like I should? A zombie is more rested than I was this morning.
Explains the migraine.
Seriously, what could be worst than today’s HS3106 paper?
Im picking out pieces of glass from my brain
August 17, 2008
Hi. I am losing it.
I need proper meals la. I’ve been living of Uncle Toby’s muesli bars(God bless Uncle T) &occasional red apples(to substitute the chips..healthier choice! no, I’m just too lazy to go down &buy chips). Now sudden cravings for murtabak daging.
&friends 
&a tea latte with double vanilla.
Or that barrista who made my tea latte with double vanilla.
“Took you forever to order!” my cousin said, annoyed. “What were you both talking about!”
“No, nothing.” *Sheepish* “She’s sooooo nice.” *Wistful, rather than lustful.
My cousin &I both looked at the lady.
“&so pregnant…” *The-hell-Lela? face.
“It’s true they say, pregnant women have this glow…”
Yea k so I had a regular tea latte with double vanilla from coffee beans. Then a large caramel frappe from starbucks(or Venti, whatever, large sounds fine to me). Back to back.
What’s your excuse?
August 14, 2008
Exams bring out the junkie in me. Bags of Lays, as in really..BAGS of lays. Pringles. Excessive caffeine. Late night meals. As in chicken curry &yesterday’s beef pizza. Excessive caffeine. Hershey’s chocolates. Some leftover goodies from Aisya Farid’s sister’s engagement last week. &durians 
Random sey, durian. But really.
I think I dislocated my finger. Middle finger some more. Yer. Ader gitu. But it hurts. The knuckle part. How to do exam like this!
First time my handwriting didn’t suck. First time I didn’t freak out after reading the SAQs. Hence the handwriting la. If they give extra marks for handwriting, swell
Disneyland is not a country please
August 13, 2008
Thank you very nice cause I cannot induce any more humiliation upon myself after what happened today. I cannot face nobody!!!!!!!!!!! If only you were a stranger I could disengage. The word Fuck was very visibly etched on my face, evaporating from every pore. Seriously let me just cry right now. Better yet. Just let me be in solitary. Hey. Solitary requires a certain confidence k. Loners are way cooler than you think. Don’t look up just let them think there’s no place else you’d rather be. Sure it gets a bit quiet in here. ESPECIALLY SINCE MY MP3 ROSAK CAUSE SYAKI DROPPED IT INTO A CUP OF MILO. THANKS EH. I’m wireless-less &mp3less.
Yea I’m in school right now. Using the Eplaza. I’m still an NYP student til graduation next year k. (Wah. Exam belom dah think about graduation. Onward, Lela!)
I saw Dr. P just now:*) He had me at hello. He always have me at hello. That, or when he’s doing his runs:*)
Sab’s in the library. With her friend. Urmph.
Nevertheless, my morning had been pretty meaningful(1:50pm right now) &I ain’t talking about the mugging.
Not one of them involving you
August 6, 2008
Communication breakdown sey today. Slenger to the max. As in, yours truly. Maybe it’s the hair.
Kama not pleased. HAHAHAHA CAN TELL. SORRY BABE. You’re like my mother that way. Even she didn’t know what to say to me, except a meek “idk la”. Translation: whatever makes you happy, you fucked up weirdo.
The last ever presentation today. Screwed it up big time. As in, yours truly. WAS SO DISTRACTED. Maybe it was the lecturer’s goldfish eyes staring back at me when I was presenting. Or maybe I was just complacent.
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NgTL rather accusingly, to Justine, Yuwen &me, cause we weren’t in red like majority of the kids today: “Singaporean or not?”
“No.” Yuwen.
“Then what country you from?”
Yuwen’s eyes darted shiftily. For the first time she had nothing else witty to say.
“Country-less,” I helped her. “She lives in a cardboard.”
To Justine: “You lei? Singaporean or not?”
“Inside,” she said patriotically. I nodded emphasizingly.
“Inside. In my heart, I am Singaporean,” Justine elaborated.
I stopped nodding. If only I could say the same. “Inside. My bra red.”
&then here was when Yuwen quipped: “My underwear red. Menses.”
:DDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!???????????
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Jenny jahat. “Lela! What you doing here?”
We were in the room where the final year students(our classmates) were showcasing their final product. Were there to support Yuwen’s subgroup.
Lala being cheeky: “Oh, I’m the assessor.” (Lecturers were there to assess &grade the product)
Next thing Jenny was hollering, “Hello people! Here got new assessor Lela!” Thank god her voice wasn’t that loud, but a few of our kids were gawking &laughing in amusement. I wanted to disappear.
F.O on me
August 5, 2008
My mp3 fucked up on me. Don’t ask why cause idk also. Haprak punyer mp3. Seriously la..either you get a good, expensive one, OR DON’T GET IT AT ALL. Tapi takpurr. It was perfect while it lasted. Relying on the FM radio for music now… It’s awright, except sometimes when I tuned in to Dan &Young in the morning, I ended up smiling to myself in the bus.
Later in the day:
Syaki’s sms: “Babat boy jumped off the shelf &landed on the computer table. Some computer plugs came off. Think the Mio/Modem affected. Laptop &computer both not working.”
I remembered thinking, thank GOD presentations over. Won’t be needing the internet hence.
I can live without internet.
Just two today
August 4, 2008
Don’t you just love accidental photos? Just two today. Idk if you know, but I’ve switched from dA to Eljay to Flickr &now back to Eljay. Cause I like the privilege of the vast white space which showcases the photos to its full glory! Sure, Flickr automatically enhances your shots, but nyah! So now you know la where to go to check out my pictures. I WILL TRY TO POST A PICTURE DAILY.
Ok.
Today, or more like, yesterday? Sunday. STUDIED LIKE STUDYING IS ALL THAT I’VE EVER KNOWN.
It’s so hard to find a decent place to study. We went to the library &every table, every freaking corner, was occupied. I don’t get it. It’s a SUNDAY for crying out loud wtf are these people DOING HERE?Fuckness! Go play kite outside or watch a movie or something!!LOSERS.
Look who’s talking.
Sing for me the plans that you have for me over again
July 16, 2008
K let’s see: FYP’s done.HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THROWS CONFETTI.
K. Weird.
FYP’s done Right after it, Kama called up Yusman &all of us went: “THANK YOU YUSMAN!”
Macam surreal. All the months of hard work… it finally came down to that 20minutes(though we exceeded the time?Despite the superman speed I started off with). It was all pretty well done from what I think &what I think is the most important, right? &Loi reckoned it ‘deserved a high grade’ &today she was telling Kama(webmaster) that she was gunna recommend our site to NgSE &’talk to her about giving high grades’. Something’s up with Loi. Tis the lecturer who gave us a flying kiss at the end of our theory paper today. (Bet I was the only one who noticed that.)
Where is my head. Seriously. Idk if it was the stress or the residual caffeine still in my system. But I remembered at one point today, Aisya Farid took a good look at me &said, “Where is Lela? This is not Lela.”
&then I almost kissed a guy today. DAMN
The attack of the psyche
July 14, 2008
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HAHHA MCM P.
Time check 11:45pm. Ok I have soooooo many things to do:’( If only I could just recall them.
Just got back from Macs with Ai Kim. Studied like fuck. Actually no la. We very relax la. Must have something to do with the high amount of caffeine circulating in our blood streams. (Do they have a clinical term for that?) But whatever. I’ve the list of chemo drugs &their antidotes at the back of my head. Vaguely…but confidently! Wah, oxymoronic.(To Farid &Kim: that’s another word to search up dictionary.com.Tomorrow I test you. HAHA.)
Ok shit I’m very high now Abeh sad. Time to channel the high on to our FYP. (TOMORROW AHHHHH. It’s showtime.)
PS. Thanks for the coolest most creative birthday gift ever, Tiong Ai Kim. ORANGE BRA STRAPS. WOW. VERY HANDY. I laughed out loud when I opened your gift at the atrium. Thanks for making me smile:))
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Get nekid, people, it’s my birthday.
July 10, 2008
I’m still in my celebratory mood.
Not.
But still.
VRE MANAGEMENT IS FINALLY OVER. So relieved, I could cry. Except I had so many things to think about that needs my attention, that I FORGOT to feel relieve. Only when Farid randomly mentioned it out of nowhere during Andy’s lecture(which was like an hour after the presentation itself), I went like, “Oh ya, VRE over.” &then we gave each other a lame high-five. &then after that it’s back down to reality. &the reality is…well, it has never been uglier. &it can only get worse from here.
MANNNNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn I wish I could be more optimistic, more positive about the whole everything, but sometimes it’s so hard to find these days amongst this concatenation of chaos &confusion. When what you’re doing is never congruent to what you wanna be doing. Isn’t that Life.
It’s awright. Just think short-term happiness for now.
I am craving for Lays. Damn.
I thought today was simply spectacular. AS IN AFTER THE RAIN STOPPED. It was a bit before 7pm. &I was in the bus, &it had just stopped raining. I noticed the clouds seemed closer, somehow? Like if I were to stand on top of the highest building, all I had to do was reach out &I could literally touch the fucking sky. The puddles on the ground reflected the beautiful, calm &comforting shade of cerulean blue of the sky, &made everything just so dream-ish. I wanted to just cuddle up next to this handsome stranger sitting next to me, pull my faded pink cardigan tighter over my chest &fold my arms &go to sleep forever.
&then HS jumped &left, &what took his place was this smelly secondary school kid. Sweat &rain water. Not a very nice mix. I wanted my yummy-smelling HS back. There goes the rest of the bus journey. Isn’t that Life.
I’m sorry I cut my hair
June 28, 2008
I’m sorry cause I only managed to complete my report today. I didn’t touch the presentation on VRE Management, nor did I even THINK about the video for the website. (This is where Farid will let out a furious cry, “LELA!!! APER PUNYER LEADER NIE???”)
Oh well. I did went out to shoot. Well, define out.
Oh ya. I wasn’t kidding about the title. I am sorry I cut my hair(just recently Eve complimented on how feminine I looked. &then I went around &did this:
I hope you’ll find Frivolous
June 28, 2008
Time: 1:36am. I AM DONE WITH FYP. For now. For Friday. For the weekend, HOPEFULLY!that the slides don’t come back to me with problems. Sigh. But anyways. It is the weekend already 
Weekend is good, even though I know I’ll probably spend it doing the stupid VRE Management presentation that’s like 10000000times worst than FYP(at least FYP is heading somewhere). &then I’ve that report to do. Stupidfuck. I might need hot mocha latte for that one.
Weekend is still good.
I haven’t showered lei, seeing that I haven’t left the computer since I got back. Not bad, considering 1)I don’t smell so bad. & 2)I was damn into FYP, damn determined to commit, UNTIL I COMPLETED IT THERE &THEN. First time! I didn’t even break for toilet/to play with my cats. Although I did stray &chat on MSN for a bit. &then the usual internet surfing…
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I’ve decided the coolest birthday gift to me from..me:D!! Kindar. Well. I could only pray it goes smooth, &stick to the ideal as closest as possible.
