It was enough time to see that everything has changed for me

I got up to Momster hitting me rudely with the pillow. I was sleeping face down, arse to the world. Or at least, to Momster &the pillow she was hitting me with. She sounded angry. I couldn’t figure what about. Actually, I could, but I couldn’t pick out one out of a possible 10000001 things that would piss her off at—I reached for my phone tucked underneath me—8am! SERIOUSLY. &yet I couldn’t even be bothered to tell her to stop. Just not the head, I was willing.

She gave me one final hit over the head.

I stuffed my phone back &went back to sleep, only to wake to an sms at 9ish. I had to. It was vibrating in my face &the voice of Larry Solimon was bursting my ear drums, kindar.

“Amazing,” Momster quipped. She was watching television, looking slightly annoyed at being interrupted by my ringtone. “You woke to an sms but not to me hitting you with a pillow.”

“Try the laptop next time,” I said, giving her a peck on her head.

“Don’t think I won’t.”

Mental note to self: hide laptop.

Aku don’t wanna talk to you anymore

AAAAH It’s 9:30pm. What the hell have I been doing!

Let’s see.

AM shift today.

Not bad

Felt bad leaving Sab with 3empty beds. Hm.

You know how when you first met someone. &you straightaway find yourself completely head over heels for her. Or him luh. But that’s before you know her. Or him. But after you’ve had the chance to get to know her, or him, you’re STILL head over heels, but it brings a different sort of feeling…You’re more at ease now. You don’t feel the awkward-shyness with her anymore. But what you feel is just pure fondness, pure adoration.

That’s how I am with Sab:*) Who would knew… I definitely hadn’t seen this coming. I’d never thought. But you know what! I like it &you know what the best thing is??? What I have with her, it drives Du crazy I WONDERRR WHYYYEEE.

…except that I cannot stand it..the stabs of jealousy I feel when her guyfriend calls? When I’m with her? I’d be like p.o faced throughout. But there was once Sab totally got it, &she was like, “Eh, gotta go luh. I’m with my friend. Later I talk to you. Ok ok ok bye.” Then smiled broadly at me. Then we linked arms &walked off. <333

Sighhhhhhhhh tomorrow last dayyyy.

A hundred miles away from home

More like a hundred miles away from the bottom of this entry. Been warned.(Nurool might be up for a ride Cause she loves my storybook entries. This for you<3)

Good morning! EH MY MONDAY WIKIDDD :DDD

Tuesday had better measure up.

Can be done, if I continue doing what I did that I did on Monday:

stop obsessing about the time!

Why am I writing like this?

Seriously to stop looking at the clock every 2minutes with the intense desperation to want it to FLY instead of TICK, stop counting down to break, stop counting down to 9pm. It only makes us miserable, &distract us from work. Instead just…let the amount of work get you, which it will if you take it seriously enough.

That was what happened yesterday! I was still doing work at 8:55pm, instead of standing by the counter, waiting to sign out. AHAHAHHA. Not bad, man So it had took me a week. A week to really get my ass all comfy in a paeds ward.

The milk room

I missed Shannel, I missed Shanie, because I wasn’t around when they left the ward for good But Shanie had left me something from Delifrance

&I know Shannel has a picture of me:PPP Well. Uhm, 2-D version of me from her 6-year-old pictorial point of view. Well, apparently I had long hair(”Cause long hair is nicer!”) &I’m in ‘rainbow-coloured’ dress, complete with a pair of heels.

“You made me look like a rabbit, Shannel. Is it cause you think I’m cute? Aww you think I’m cute.”

“Well, just a bit.”

&she blushed &I just flipped.

We’re the snake people

As you can tell…

WE’VE NEW MEMBER TO THE ISM HOUSEHOLD!!! FLICKR! FLICKR!!! I KNOW, INSANNNNNNNNNEEE. You should see Momster’s face when Lina brought him home. She was like, “WHY YOU…BERTUAH NYER BUDAKKK~~~awwww, he’s the cutest…”

:))))))) Idk if this is official but…idk I mean, we kids are old enough now, we’re pass that whole ‘please can be keep him pretty please’ whiny phase we once were(hence Anggun, Babat Boy &Mac). With this new guy we were like, “Damn…extra cat food &cat litter ¬ forgetting visits to the vet &whatnot…” Yuh! But! Damn!!! A lil too late now ey! Would be cruel to release him now wouldn’t it?

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Today, some action

Ok I wouldn’t call it action luh, but me &Shannel, we’re bonding. She’s the 6year old girl who drew me? Yup. Idk what happened…it just did &there’s no turning back.

Time goes by, so slowly

It rained in the morning ohmg. I woke up, fannoyed. Froze my butt off in the bus, &the air-conditioned ward didn’t help. Hungry pangs.

Time goes by. So slowly.

At least I was thinking what I wasn’t supposed to be thinking of. The temperature was overwhelming me. Thanks, in a way…

Paeds, paeds. Sigh. Killing me I tell you! Killing me!

No, not killing. TORTURING. Killing would in fact be a kinder option.

Have yet to be familiar with the ward. Like THE SLUICE ROOM’S IN THE FRONT, YAW??

This kid drew me. Aww. Right down to my purple socks. 10/10 for observation skills.

Me, Mags &SK were in the toilet. There were 2cubicles &apparently I wasn’t so urgent. So THEY self-concluded.

We heard from Mags’ cubicle…shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. “As you can tell,” Mag said, above the …noise, “I am very urgent. Feel the power?”

Laughed ass off. Kalau budak2 pat staff room tak dengar pon naseb, beb

It was my turn.

… No need to say luh hor…………..

I got out &they were like, “WAHHHH, LELA POWERRRR.”

Ah-thank you

HAHA OMG I wish I had something interesting to share like about my experience in a paediatric ward but really! NONE???? Instead I have to tell ya’ll about..yuh..HAHAHA. I’M TRULY SORRY.

Tomorrow

Wipe the sleep from your eyes

… Whee I didn’t get lost at KK today.

Paeds kindar boring. I feel uh! No action uh beb. But it’s only the first day, right? 9more days. Can do.

It’s just that my favorite girls ain’t wimme. Damn it makes such a huge difference! I remember the last time I was here for Gynae, it was such a blast.

Kids don’t do me, I don’t do kids. I suck. Is it my fault they hate my hair I’m not likeable on first impression? Maybe my communication skills luh. Or lack thereof. I can’t even talk to my friends, what more 1, 2, 3year old kids.

But they are cute nevertheless I can smile like an idiot just looking at them. Such joy &innocence. My heart feels like bursting out of its chest &go soaring cause they are just the most adorable little shit.

Though I swear if I hear another ‘twinkle twinkle little star how I wonder what you are’, I will scream.

Du is like my only partner this posting. Idk how many more shit I can take from him before I go kaboom. He’s so Du, it hurts. BUT AIYA, HE’S THE ONLY ONE I HAVEEEE.

I say fuck so much it doesn’t sound like a vulgarity no more. I swear! I say fuck with love