I’m learning that there’s something I can’t go without

Sneak preview a bit la eh

“Come on, he obviously felt something for her.” … Idk how to tell them about our connection, like certain phenomena, it resists analysis and proofs. There are different times during the day when I absolutely know he’s thinking about me. I feel like he’s summoning me, silently telling me how much he longs for me too. I keep thinking of what he said to me: “We’ll know when the time is right.” … “You’re sick from this. Look at this - your poor arm. It’s like a stick. She’s not eating. She’s living off her guts.” “That’s not love.”

Explains why when my girls notice a hot guy &I totally don’t. Cause I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else. But you. Hai, sad case.

…I think that I’m filtering my interactions with you through a confirmation bias, but on the other hand and equally, I feel that there is actually something that I perceive in your behavior that I feel I can’t be wrong about - my instinct is usually right…&I don’t even know why I’m putting these thoughts down; they seem to be dangerously obsessive…